Wait--I just picked up my life!!

Ok---so on Monday I picked my life back up and it was supposed to be all fun from here on out! Laughing, playing with my kids, walks with my wife just the normal perfect fun life kind of stuff. That is till I started talking to people again. This week I have spoken with numerous friends who have lost their jobs and are moving, losing their homes, having emotional breakdowns or some/all of the above. Another good friend was diagnosed with a life long disease and to top it all off I took a look at our bank account and 401 K. I seem to have lost the fun vibe and feel a bit weighed down with all the struggles that seem to be going on with many close friends. For me it is worse when there is nothing I can do to solve the problem, but only offer to pray for them and then watch them endure and survive. UGH! It is a bit hard to be friviolous with life and shallow at times like this.

I need to think about what my family and I can do........

I'm Baaaaaacccckkk

After taking a six month hiatus to finish my dissertation and finally graduate I, Chris Bray, as of today June 15th have picked up my life again. The funny thing is only my family has really missed my blogging/journal writing. I really had nothing to write about the past six months except for "working and writing, writing and working, getting my writing shot down by my chairperson, rewriting and working and rewriting more and so on." Not the most interesting read. But as of today June 15th, 2009 I am interesting again! Or at least I am telling myself that.

So am I happy that I graduated? Yes! But looking back, which I am trying not to do right now because of PTDS (post traumatic stress dissertation syndrome) I realized it was a bit of a sad six months. The gloom of winter with its dark and cloudy days matched what I was experiencing. Missing bedtime with prayers and stories, and time with Gale did not help my already sad and cranky disposition.

But now that has changed and I can start living again! Now that I am ready to live and have fun Gale leaves for girls camp tomorrow. So it looks like Elle, Ava and myself will have to start the fun.

If you want to know how I feel about Gale enduring this whole thing you need to read my acknowledgment page to her at the beginning of my dissertation. It will make you cry. Good luck finding it!~